• Turned 21. Had a great night where I was amazed and touched by how many beautiful people I get to call my friends. The effort they went to was above and beyond what I ever expected for that night, and even though I slept through the last part of it (I got nervous before the party began and started to drink to calm myself, and then just didn’t stop), I hope everyone had a good time and enjoyed themselves, because when I woke the next morning I was in tears looking through what my friends had done for me. GAH, do not deserve!
• Slept through the majority of Saturday, paid the price for that night big time. When I finally got out of bed in the afternoon, sat around and read The Wonders of the Universe, taking extensive notes on anything I found particularly interesting. There’s a lot of notes.
• Today, drank a lot of tea in my lovely new tea cups, and ate lots of chocolate, and lay in bed with my poor sick mum and watched Wonders of the Universe. Have learned you can never have too much amazing astronomical knowledge or Brian Cox in one weekend.
• Sat around with my younger sister and planned whether or not to walk the Pacific Crest Trail or the Appalachian Trail in 5+ years time. Regardless of whether or not we ever end up doing either of them, it’s good motivation to really start walking properly, and for me to get back out there with the Bush Walkers Club and do some more walks. I really bit off more than I could chew the first time and have been reluctant ever since, but I really shouldn’t let that experience stop me anymore. 
• Tomorrow, I have the day off. Off to the city to see the Voice, shazam! Never been in a live audience before, looking forward to it.

Some interesting facts I have noted down (apologies if they’re inaccurate, this is the best my non-science brain could do in terms of comprehension):

• Sedna, a dwarf planet discovered in 2003, takes 12,000 Earth years to complete a single orbit around the Sun.
• When the Earth’s magnetosphere deflects harmful solar winds from stripping away our atmosphere, energy builds up over time, until it is forced to release a burst of electrically charged particles over the poles, resulting in the aurora borealis (northern lights).
• Plants appear green because they have adapted to absorb the blue and red parts of the light spectrum and reject the green, thus these particular photons bounce back into our eyes.
• A single photon of light can take anywhere from 10,000-170,000 years to travel from the Sun’s core to the surface, and then takes 8 minutes to reach the Earth.

• Went on a bush walk. Took a lot of photos of wild flowers and ducks. Converse got owned by mud, still a great time.
• Saw the Avengers a second time. Have a feeling this will become a repeat of the 5-viewing-escapade of Star Trek, ‘09. Am okay with this.
• Painted my nails an intense metallic grey. Am very into painting my nails at the moment.
• Today am wearing a beanie and a comfortable hoodie, sitting in front of my computer with 5+ tabs open on my browser all containing Avengers fics that I have yet to read. 
• Am going to make some tea and drown in some Avengers feels. 

Good weekend.

Fever of 38.4

Immediately come to the conclusion that I have sepsis from the staple I put in my finger earlier today. My hypochondriac is showing.

Like, I’m obviously thinking I don’t have sepsis, but then I’m also thinking, I fucking have sepsis. 

A women’s community a cappella choir in St Ives. And I made my grandmother join with me.

Got accepted into university….for the fourth time!

So, I think I’ve just made an official appointment for a tattoo at the Sydney Body Art Expo next March. Ahhhhh! Apparently it’s going to take about five hours, and I’ll have to take a day off work to get it but, RAAAAA I’M SO EXCITED. It’s going to be a wolf, which pretty much ranks me high among douchiest people ever but whatevs. Wolves are cliche for a reason! Because they’re awesome! And stuff. Sghjfkgjdukfyuk I’m so excited!

It’s going to be tough to save up, because I’m already desperately trying to save for my trip away next October, but I should be able to do it if I’m super frugal from now until the expo. 

Every time I’m faced with a spider that’s within my field of vision, I’m reminded of just how damn scared I am of spiders. I can’t handle them moving anywhere unless it’s away from me, and I need to keep my eyes on them at all times, in case I turn away and they’ve run into my bed sheets or something. I have nightmares about putting on a pair of shoes and finding a funnel-web in them, or getting into bed and seeing a huntsman on my ceiling.

It’s a pretty unjustified fear, too. Spiders are generally quite timid and would rather flee than take on something twenty times their own size. And I’m all about the spider appreciation and respect, (because who wouldn’t respect an animal the size of a coin that scares the shit out of something that can end it’s life by whacking it with a newspaper), but I am also all about the respect from a considerable distance.

There was a little black spider in my room until about ten minutes ago, and as soon as I saw him I jumped on to a ‘Dangerous Spider Identification’ site and tried to see if I could suss this guy out. Then, not being able to conclusively figure out what he was (but I am now aware of the defining features of several venomous species), I got up onto my bed and stared straight at him for about five minutes, not able to bring myself to kill him, but also too scared to do anything other than watch him like a hawk.

It was a tense standoff, which eventually culminated in me power-walking to my mum’s bedroom and asking her to take care of it. Now I’ll have nightmares about spiders finding their way through my window pane and crawling across my face.

Also, did you know that funnel web spiders can get to the bottom of a swimming pool and live underwater for several days? Fuck that shit.

Maybe I’ll do that. 

For now, I’m going to go get into bed and watch Thor. Today has been a good day.

So excited. I wonder what it will feel like to be in St. Kilda again after thinking about it for so long! 

Also I get a Friday off work, yesssss. 

Although, now I’m procrastinating my TAFE work with my uni work. So possibly this a step forward.